me
xh. 01031988.

take me away

8:22 PM i want to go.

i know i should not be like that. so why am i feeling this way? shouldnt i be happy?

but im human too. even its just a little. i cant help it. i still do. shit.

maybe the time hasn't come yet.

life aint fair. shit happens. things dun go the way you wan it to be. but get a grip. move on.

if only it can be done as easily as it can be said.

sometimes when i think of you. i'll think of the life you never had. the things you never got to do.
the chances you never had.

even if ppl told me not to be sad tt i didnt have the chance. and that you'll understand. it makes me think. do i really not have the chance to do whatever it takes for me to go? is that the best that i can do?

its not just me. everyone misses you. someone once asked me why do i think so much? with all the what ifs. then i've come to realise that ive been like that ever since i became a programmer. i was taught to think of all the what ifs. and tt it was you who have taught me to think of the many different possibilities to one situation. if you were here. i think i would alrdy have more than 10 solutions to all the things im facing with now. haha.

someday. maybe not today but come one day. ill celebrate the life tt you lived and when i think of you. it will be of fondness and not sadness.

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i miss you..

come on xh. get a grip. move along. move on.