me
xh. 01031988.

take me away

11:33 PM oh the irony of things.

words unsaid and feelings not conveyed doesnt mean they arent there.

the disappointment.

adding on a little the touch of insensitivity. combination.

how civil.

8:22 PM i want to go.

i know i should not be like that. so why am i feeling this way? shouldnt i be happy?

but im human too. even its just a little. i cant help it. i still do. shit.

maybe the time hasn't come yet.

life aint fair. shit happens. things dun go the way you wan it to be. but get a grip. move on.

if only it can be done as easily as it can be said.

sometimes when i think of you. i'll think of the life you never had. the things you never got to do.
the chances you never had.

even if ppl told me not to be sad tt i didnt have the chance. and that you'll understand. it makes me think. do i really not have the chance to do whatever it takes for me to go? is that the best that i can do?

its not just me. everyone misses you. someone once asked me why do i think so much? with all the what ifs. then i've come to realise that ive been like that ever since i became a programmer. i was taught to think of all the what ifs. and tt it was you who have taught me to think of the many different possibilities to one situation. if you were here. i think i would alrdy have more than 10 solutions to all the things im facing with now. haha.

someday. maybe not today but come one day. ill celebrate the life tt you lived and when i think of you. it will be of fondness and not sadness.

...

i miss you..

come on xh. get a grip. move along. move on.

9:02 PM i swear im getting better at telling fibs. lol.

was talking to jamie while working. opps? bleh. =p kaes. though im laughing at his expense but it did made my day better. =) thank you!

PART 1

Jamie says:

tat ya bro?

Jamie says:

----------->

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

NOPE

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

MY BF

Jamie says:

hahaha

Jamie says:

really

Jamie says:

gosh!!!

Jamie says:

he looks like u!!!!!

Jamie says:

hAHaha

Jamie says:

the smile looks the same same!

Jamie says:

haHAHAHHAhaA

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

TT'S WHY HE'S MY BF MAH

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

LOL

Jamie says:

hAhaa

Jamie says:

ok

Jamie says:

hahAHaha

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

WHY YOU LAUGH UNTIL LIKE TT

Jamie says:

oh no la

Jamie says:

cos im shocked by the resemblence

Jamie says:

but not bad not bad

Jamie says:

haha

Jamie says:

handsome! --> wah pls handsome bro comes with PRETTY SIS

Jamie says:

got taste~!

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

OF COZ

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

HE'S MY BF FOR LIKE 19 YRS

Jamie says:

...? --> which at this point im laughing like mad alrdy. LOL

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

ROFL

Jamie says:

hAHaha

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

WAHAHAHAHAH

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

MY BRO LA

Jamie says:

bluff me

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

HEH

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

TT WAS QUITE FUN

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

WAHAHAHAH

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

=D

Jamie says:

lol.

Jamie says:

tats why i got shock

Jamie says:

the resemblence like so much!

Jamie says:

twins?

xh the programmer. - im yours says: --> PART 2 (of which things get even more ridiculous)

yeps

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

but our bday like end of the yr

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

he younger than me

Jamie says:

ah ok dec babies

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

so they put him as next yr

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

so ya

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

damn stupid la

Jamie says:

muHHAha

Jamie says:

really?

Jamie says:

midnight baby?

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

otherwise we same yr

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

ya

xh the programmer. - im yours says:

damn dumb la

Jamie says:

wah no wonder

Jamie says:

so his bday is like 1st jan la!

Jamie says:

good leh~!

Jamie says:

i also wan! hAHhaa

Jamie says:

erm but he is a guy abit sian la go army earlier haha

blah blah blah...

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the rubbish you can come up with when you are getting cranky in office. lol.

tml is friday!!!!! =)

11:16 PM xiu xiu is a patriotic girl and has gone for 2 sessions of ndp preview..

nah.. jus kiddin. but i did went for the preview twice. and the second was better. fireworks and all.. and it rained. i know. but it was more fun!! all of us scrambled to put on the poncho so on and so forth. and all tt kudos to ryan aka. lemon head for the ticket! i'll go by my promise. not to call you lemon head again! (i'll come up with a better nickname for you! heh) =p

other than tat, there is nothing much cept for work. which i think im getting a lil tired from. can i not go to work coz im tired? no. so? yes. GET ON WITH IT. jia you man..

is it not time yet?



10:01 PM
ahh well..

time really made quite a few things fade away. well as usual quite a few things happened.

ling ling's camp. which was fun of course!! =) its totally a diff experience when dealing with the intellectually disabled people. but it was an enriching on nonetheless. kapoed this pic frm brandon's blog. heh.


















9:04 PM ive been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause everything i see ur bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

it starts in my toes
and i crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for awhile now
just take ur time
where ever you go

the rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hiding in a safer place
under covers staying safe and warm
you give me feelings that i adore

wad am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
i just............. mmmmmmm

ive been asleep for a while now
you tucked me in just like a child now
coz everytime you hold me in your arms
im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

it starts in my soul
and i lose all control
when you kiss my nose
the feeling shows
cause you make me smile
baby just take ur time now
holdin me tight

where ever where ever where ever you go
where ever where ever where ever you go
where ever you go, i'll always know
cause you make me smile here jus for awhile...

=)