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12:17 AM hello you!.

Hisashiburi! Man.. its been quite a while since there was a constructive or how do you call it.. a legitimate post? hahaha. I have not abandon you my dear blog!! =p

without further ado.. onwards with the post!

well its been 1 sem!! ZOMG. My first semester of uni just flew pass amidst all the projects, lectures and mugging! And looking further back.. it just means that i've stopped working for 4 months!! *i really wonder why does everything seems like its ages ago?? feels i've stopped working for 1 yr* oh wells. 1st sem was.. exciting and yet. draining? brains are damn rusty and the whole lot of things to study was.. overwhelming i guess?? nonetheless.. it was fun! hahaha. i highly doubt i'll say that when next sem's projects are coming.. 3 more sems to go!! and its back to working life.. machiam like taking sabbatical from work sia. hahahah. =p

k seems like my habit of digressing is still un-rusty.

alrighty.. since 1st sem is done and over with.. now.. all i have to worry about is passing for my exams!! yeah. im only aiming for a pass for all the modules im taking. which is pretty pathetic? but seriously.. it aint easy. 2 Dec i hope you wun come soon!!

hmm studies aside.. elene and i paid a lil visit to ah lam.. our little ritual. it was definitely fun catching up with her while we made our way there. some how.. the feeling of "everything feels like they were ages ago" was there too.. as we're standing there.. i noticed quite a few new stuff that ah lam got since our last visit. and as i was looking at his peekture.. again.. it felt as thou it been ages seen i last saw that photo of his and that i've been missing out on a whole lot of things.. *which really made me wonder why* aish.. but overall it was a good trip! we'll be back again..

I dont think ive mentioned this before.. sometimes.. i really enjoy the process of going out on ur own.. by yourself.. like on my way to meet elene.. i went to yishun! *ok this prolly sounds noobshit.. but 22yrs of my life in Singapore. i've NVR been to yishun!* ok. yishun! the shopping center there is northpoint!! i always thot northpoint was at woodlands.. but oh wells! you learn something new everyday! you know its just tt feeling of exploring new places.. with your small bag.. listening to songs.. tt feeling is somehow simple and yet exhilarating at the same time? not sure if tt's the way you can describe it. but yea. some where near there.. thou at times it does get a wee bit lonely.. but whenever i go out on my own.. its like a process of getting to know yourself a bit more and paying some attention to urself.. self discovery if you might call it. haha. but such moments are really precious to me.. and of course i always reward myself with a cup of bubble tea when im out on my own.. hahahahahah.. what's not to like abt tt right? =p

hokays.. ive been thinking.. on why everything feels like its been ages ago.. and. i cant find an answer. lol. *very smart xh* is it cos i've "isolated" myself while i was mugging away for exams?? could be. could it be that i haven went shopping for a while? maybe. or that i haven met up with my friends in quite a bit? i really am not very sure.. but what i really dun like is how the feeling manifests or the direction that it is taking.. doesnt seem good. then again. i wouldn't want to jump into new things mindlessly just to rid of that feeling. hmmm.. what to do?? however i cant think of anything now.. guess i'll come and revisit this when i get a clearer picture..

tml! i'll be going for an interview! for an admin job. 1st one since 2 yrs ago. honestly.. dunno how it will go.. but. i DO hope that everything will be alright! * and that i wun come across as a snarky lil kid* wish me all the best!!

hokie dokes! its time to go ZzzZZzzZ.. i'll be back! dunno how long. but i will. until the next time!! :)

xiuuuuuuu

11:08 PM RAWRRRRRR!!!!!

sodamnfrustrated.

damnit.

3:10 PM In a blink of an eye, it has been 2 years.. How time flies ehs?

All these time spent is like taking a walk in the forest. We trudge through the mostly foggy but yet at times clear path with our little steps. Mostly we stumbling along the way and occasionally, we’ll emerge triumph after some difficulties. But just how many of these little steps that we have taken are the ones that really lead us to what we really want or what we want to achieve.??

Are we living for the moment? Or are we just moving along hurriedly without smelling the flowers at the side of the road/forest?

If you ask me now, I would have no idea whether the path I’ve chose are the right ones or whether all these while I’m just wondering around in circles.

A few days ago.. I was hit with the realization that ½ a year has just passed by! Just like that. ZOMG. Days that I’ve been desperately trying to cut down at the start of the year (Akin to how a NS man counts how many days left to his ORD date) is left with the following:

15days to my last day of work.

9 days to Bangkok trip. (oh hey! I’m even going to Bangkok for a holiday!! Didn’t even mentioned it here..)

& 16 days to start of school!!

(Gee. I really haven’t updated in ages huh?)

Alrights, coming back, soon, I’ll be embarking on yet another part of my life. UNI LIFE. Shall aim that it’ll be the hippest/ most happening time of my life! And hopefully, it’ll be step closer to that clearing in the forest or to my dreams. (:

Cheers,
Xh.

6:15 PM maybe someday.. i'll take the leap of faith.

someday..

10:30 PM was it you who spoke the words that thing would happen but not to me
oh things are gonna happen naturally
oh im taking your advice and im looking on the bright side
and im balancing the whole damn thing
oh but at often times those words they get tangled up in lines
and the bright light turns to night
oh until the dawn it brings
another day we'll sing about the magic that was you and me

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
others only read of the love, others only dreamed of, the love that i love

see im all about them words
over numbers unencumbered numbered words
hundreds of page pages pages for words
more words than ive ever heard and i feel so alive

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see me now
well im almost settled

you and i, you and i,
not so little you and i anymore
and with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a GIRL

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see me now
well then im almost finally out of
im finally out of
finally dededededede
well im almost finally, finally i am free
oh that's me

and oh its okay if you had to go away
oh just remember that the telephones were they workin' in both ways.
and the more you follow through
and there's always more leftover and not too much explaining to do
and oh if you ever ever ever you find your love
i will be your lifeline, i will never miss a phone call
but if i never never never hear them ring
if nothing else i'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause i'll remember everything you sang

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others can only dream of
well if they could see me now
they'll see that you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others have often read of
if they could see me now
they'll see that im almost finally out of
well im finally out of
finally dededededede
well almost im finally finally out of words

4:06 PM what upppppp!!

lol. sorry kinda ki siao now. hee. anyways. its been quite long ehs? hahah. well. its been the same old routine lor. meet friends. 21st BDAES. go out. shop. finding more things to do. even i myself is sick of hearing ive been doing everytime people asked. sheesh. i shld really break out of this routine soon... WHEN I GET BACK TO STUDYING.

now tt ive started i have a feeling this is going to be a long post. once you've released the floodgates, there's no turning back. hahahaa. pardon me. =p

well today elene and i went to visit ah lam. our 2nd visit. unlike the 1st time. which was a mad rush trying to find directions by the street directory. this time we're well prepared. but. we missed many turned and it actually took us like 1hr to get there. hahahaha. last time only half an hour. =p too noob alrdy. is cannot man. and we saw wei sheng and coy when we drove into the parking lot. they were leaving luhh. if we hadn't missed the turns, we could have met up with them. wasted. anyways. we're there cos its gonna be ah lam's 22nd next wed. soo we decided to go visit him. hope he likes the prezzie tt we've made for him. =))

the next big event is gonna be ah ni's chalet! wee! haven been to one for a long long time... plus its on halloween. i think its gonna be damn fun luhh. or at least i think im going to go ki siao at hers. :) gonna look forward to it man.

after ah ni's it gonna be my sis's wedding. oh shit... I STILL HAVEN GET MY DRESS YET!!!!!!!! i think i really really shld go search for it seriously. every sat when im home. i'll be asked by my relatives whether ive got it yet. hee.. its either i get one really soon? or. i dun go home on sat. hahahhaha. stupid like shit. how can dun go home on sat. lame luh. plus. i think ive become damn fat. jia lat. i must go on intensive training alrdy *yeah right xh.*. i must find a way to become.... fit as a fiddle one way or another. haha. we shall see luh huh?? =p other than the dress issue. it'll be spring clean time even before the new year starts. means throwing out things again. which means reminiscing on the things, and clearing up my feelings before i throw them away. hahah.. which leads to........

me throwing a "letter" that was rather important to me. *actually i dunno whether it can sensed but ive like been wanting to talk about this since the start, but i just cant BOOMS. and dump all my thots just like tt otherwise i would deem to be emo-ing.. BUT I REALLY AM NOT EMO-ING!! haha. ok. nuff said* hmm. to me. its like a huge closure? this weird thing has been ongoing for so long alrdy. i dun really know how to describe it. i wouldnt say it has been a complete waste of my time. but yet. i feel tt it is quite wasted, cos i actly thot tt things could turn out well? but it just didnt turn out that way i guess. however i definitely have learned quite a bit of things from this whole AM thing. its funny how an event soo small would lead something that matters quite a bit to me. many a times i wished i had enough courage to write out all my thots/feelings? but every time i wanted to, i thot there shouldnt be a need to given the way things are now plus we dont even talk to each other, so i've chucked them aside. now i suppose i really dun need to since everything would a start afresh? throwing away the letter kinda finalizes everything. sooo it would be good bye to you in a good way i guess.

heck i dont even think many people would know what im talking about here. lest you be the one to chance upon this. aishhhh.. now this whole thing does sound kinda emo. haha. =p

oh wells. i guess tt's all to it?? hope minna-san are doing well in their uni, work and other wadnots. :) until the next time!

loves,
xiu hui

11:04 PM kns xh. STOP SHOPPING LIKE YOU PRINT MONEY PLS.!!! -.-

okthnxbye.